self portrait out of dirt

I remember doodling on a paper and drawing a woman out of dirt chunks and cracks and thinking let's go with it while it's still happening grab the canvas and do it larger while i'm this into it, I remember the careful agitated focus and how I think it's my best piece but that I worked on it with less motivation or care after and merely smeared some hips dancing over it.

there is some darkness it communicates some things I can't define something about energy, again self creation, I remember I would say it was meant to be a person "creating themselves" but I now see a few things more to it that I can't really say